The D’s & C’s of Autism–By: Carole Norman Scott


By: Carole Norman Scott

These words tell exactly how I felt when I was dealing with the grief of discovering that I had a handicapped child.  My faith at that time was based on my “head-knowledge” of Jesus because I had gone to Church all my life, and believed everything I knew to believe.  I was trusting in all I knew at the time.

  I felt:

 DELIGHTED as I prepared for the baby.

 DECEIVED by God at having a handicapped child.

 DISILLUSIONED with life…DESPERATE.

 DESTROYED by DISAPPOINTMENT.

 DEPRIVED of what was rightfully mine.

 More than DISCOURAGED—I was DEPRESSED.

 I felt DESERTED by God, friends, and family.

 I was DESOLATE — DEADENED — DEBILITATED.

 I felt DESTRUCTIVE toward myself or the baby.

 My Spirits DETERIORATED.

  I was DEVASTATED — Felt “this can’t be happening to me!”

  I thought I might be DEVIATE.

  I was almost DEVOID of feeling — except for guilt.

  My mind had DEVILISH thoughts.

  I felt DETRIMENTAL to all–was DEFENSIVE as to the cause.

  I became DEMANDING of a cure.

  I was DETERMINED to find help for my baby.

  I found I may have to be my own DETECTIVE.

  I knew I needed to be DEPENDABLE.

  I felt DEMOTED in the “World of Mothers”!

  I also felt DELAYED and DETOURED in my life’s goals…        

I thought, I won’t be DETERRED, I will survive DESPITE the odds! I didn’t know if I would ever be a DEVOTED mother, but was sure at the time, I would never be DEVOUT towards God again.   

But, after I asked Jesus into my heart and got into the Bible myself, I was able to claim its promises.  The Holy Spirit changed me from the inside out.  I was then able to describe that experience in more positive terms.                   

  I was CONVICTED and CONTRITE.

  My joy in the Lord was CONTAGIOUS.

  I felt CONTENTED, CONFIDENT, and COMFORTED.

  That was much in CONTRAST to my former CONFLICT.

   I was now CONTROLLED by the Holy Spirit.

   I was COMFORTABLE in God’s presence through CONFESSED sin.

   Jesus’ death and resurrection for me personally, was the CONTRIBUTING     factor.

   I was now COMPLETE and CONFORMABLE.

   Jesus was now my CONSTANT COMPANION.

   I WAS COMPLIANT and COMPOSED.

   I could now CONCENTRATE on what CONCERNED others.

   I was more CONSIDERATE of them.

   I was now free to be a CONSOLING and CONSTRUCTIVE force.

   I no longer felt CONDEMNED.

   My CONDITION was accepted through CHRIST.

   I was now more than a CONQUEROR, since being CONVERTED.

   I could now praise the Lord, and be COMPLIMENTARY of His love and CARING in my life.

   I no longer felt like I was CONVALESCING.

   I could CONSCIENTIOUSLY thank God for His CONTROL and CONSISTENCY in my life.

 

 

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About autism45.wordpress.com

I am the mother of a fifty-four year old autistic son, and am happy to be an nineteen year Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma survivor. My blogs (autism45, lymphomainsights.com, Pictures & Poems to God's Glory, and stubbornlymphoma.wordpress.com) contain journals, poems, pictures, photography, letters, and other writings and insights pertaining to autism and lymphoma, and the spiritual growth we (my husband and I) have experienced from all. I hope you'll visit all four blogs. Enjoy the pictures I've taken and the poems I've written too!
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