The D’s & C’s of Autism–By CNS


These words tell exactly how I felt when I was dealing with the grief of discovering that I had a handicapped child. My faith at that time was based on my “head-knowledge” of Jesus because I had gone to Church all my life, and believed everything I knew to believe. I was trusting in all I knew at the time.

I felt:

DELIGHTED as I prepared for the baby.

DECEIVED by God at having a handicapped child.

DISILLUSIONED with life…DESPERATE.

DESTROYED by DISAPPOINTMENT.

DEPRIVED of what was rightfully mine.

More than DISCOURAGED—I was DEPRESSED.

I felt DESERTED by God, friends, and family.

I was DESOLATE — DEADENED — DEBILITATED.

I felt DESTRUCTIVE toward myself or the baby.

My Spirits DETERIORATED.

I was DEVASTATED — Felt “this can’t be happening to me!”

I thought I might be DEVIATE.

I was almost DEVOID of feeling — except for guilt.

My mind had DEVILISH thoughts.

I felt DETRIMENTAL to all–was DEFENSIVE as to the cause.

I became DEMANDING of a cure.

I was DETERMINED to find help for my baby.

I found I may have to be my own DETECTIVE.

I knew I needed to be DEPENDABLE.

I felt DEMOTED in the “World of Mothers”!

I also felt DELAYED and DETOURED in my life’s goals…

I thought, I won’t be DETERRED, I will survive DESPITE the odds! I didn’t know if I would ever be a DEVOTED mother, but was sure at the time, I would never be DEVOUT towards God again.

But, after I asked Jesus into my heart and got into the Bible myself, I was able to claim its promises. The Holy Spirit changed me from the inside out. I was then able to describe that experience in more positive terms.

I was CONVICTED and CONTRITE.

My joy in the Lord was CONTAGIOUS.

I felt CONTENTED, CONFIDENT, and COMFORTED.

That was much in CONTRAST to my former CONFLICT.

I was now CONTROLLED by the Holy Spirit.

I was COMFORTABLE in God’s presence through CONFESSED sin.

Jesus’ death and resurrection for me personally, was the CONTRIBUTING factor.

I was now COMPLETE and CONFORMABLE.

Jesus was now my CONSTANT COMPANION.

I WAS COMPLIANT and COMPOSED.

I could now CONCENTRATE on what CONCERNED others.

I was more CONSIDERATE of them.

I was now free to be a CONSOLING and CONSTRUCTIVE force.

I no longer felt CONDEMNED.

My CONDITION was accepted through CHRIST.

I was now more than a CONQUEROR, since being CONVERTED.

I could now praise the Lord, and be COMPLIMENTARY of His love and CARING in my life.

I no longer felt like I was CONVALESCING.

I could CONSCIENTIOUSLY thank God for His CONTROL and CONSISTENCY in my life.

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